So, I guess I had a break-down of sorts this morning.. Ever since I got swapped over to Customer Service here at work, I've experienced a small sense of dread while driving to work. Now, I didn't adore my job before this switch, but I have realized how much I did like my job. I miss it thoroughly, as well as my coworkers over there. I can see them whenever I want, but it's just not the same! The last thing I want to do is have a pity-party because that doesn't solve anything, right?
Let's start with last night. I got home from work and laid down to read and take a little nap. I normally don't take a nap, but was in hopes that I could get a little extra sleep and go running the following morning (definitely didn't go running this morning, but that's besides the point!). I woke up from my nap about an hour and a half later to Cody talking to me. I was excited to see him, but still a little groggy, so I had him sit on the bed with me and talk. I guess I was being a little quiet (still being tired!!) and when he asked what we should have for dinner and I said, "I dunno.." he just got mad and walked out. Being filled with frustrations at work and coming home and having him get mad at me over something stupid, I almost lost it, but decided to go for a walk instead to cool down.
Everything went better the rest of the night, I went to bed early, didn't go running in the morning and headed to work like normal. At work, I decided to send my original boss (Justin) an email asking him to do his best to get me back there as soon as possible. As I was typing, I just started crying (silently, of course) and couldn't stop. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and settle down before heading back to my desk. I've felt better for the most part, but I just have this rock in my stomach.
I know the solution to this is to get something to help lift me up. I need to stop dwelling on the fact that I almost lost my job and that I can't even work with my people until the company can afford to hire another person. Any ideas?
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You could start with taking a gander at my review of Angels & Demons and joining that discussion.